GOaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllsssssssss

Well, I made it through Mondy without much fuss. I had to stay late at work because one of my coworkers got sick and had to leave. So, I had to stay to close up shop which basically consisted of closing out the credit card machine. Not so bad. I don't mind working out there so much now that I have accepted it more and stopped thinking of it as temporary.
I was sitting in the tub last night meditating and it suddenly occurred to me that I have never actually set a goal for myself and acheived it. Ususally if I think of one, it has to do with losing weight which I have been doing slowly without thinking about it much anyway. When I think of setting a goal I sort of feel like why bother I won't make it anyway, I never do. However, I think I am going to try again now that I have started taking my herbs to calm my brain down. They are working. I can definately feel an internal difference. My mind doesn't whirl around so fast and that inner tension that I always have is slowly melting away. It feels good enough that I am going to stay on it for a while and see what the end results are . I can also feel myself losing the need to argue and pick at Kipp all the time. I think that was a side effect of all the built up anxiety.
Here's what I am doing currently:
2 tablets of Alfalfa 2x day
1 tablet of b complex 2x day
2 capsules of fish oil 2x day
1 tablet of kelp per day
1 tablet of Vit. C per day
3 tablet of Damiana 2x per day(switched from St. John's wort)
1 tablet of L-tyrosine per day(may not need that one now)
I know it sounds like a big handful of pills but they are definately working because not only am I calmer, but I have lost 20lbs over the last six months.
I have only been taking the St John's and Damiana for a week but they are having a postitive effect too. I feel so much better!!! My hope is that they will keep working and my mind will do what I want it to instead of just flying around worrying needless and uselessly.
I can't wait til I start closing the store because I will be able to go in late enough that I can walk for 30 minutes in the morning too. That will be great. Right now its still too dark and I am taking Dan to school too. As soon as Christmas is over though I will be able to start. Actually on Monday next week cause Dan will be at his Dan's starting this weekend. I have to work Sat morning for four hours, but at least its over time. Well, better get dressed and get out the door.