Time for some new news

I've decided to change the direction of this blog to focus more on developing my craft. I have been dabbling for a long time so now I want to hone in on my skills and start becoming a full blow witch. I am more of a kitchen and garden witch than a spell casting witch but I do meditate alot. I really want to start developing better mind control so that I can help my self become what I was designed for. I understand now that the only reason we are here is to cultivate great relationships and help each other as much as we can. So, with that said, I will move forward with this blog and keep myself on track by documenting my progress.
One of the biggests glaring truths of my life is that I have spent much time trying to control others. I was in the kitchen baking the other day which is one of my favorite times to contemplate life. It suddenly occured to me that I need to stop trying to make my husband not drink. He doesn't drink excessively but I have a bad background with it having spent part of my childhood with an alcoholic in the house. It makes me extremely uptight and nervous to see him drinking on a daily basis. The truth is though that I CANNOT stop him nor should I try as we are all on our own journey and the number one rule of being a witch is not to interfere with others. I think I have finally accepted that if his path deviates from mine, then that is the way it is meant to be and I have no control over anyone but myself and how I handle it. Letting go of this problem has really provided some relief and allowed me to focus more on my own growth. That's where I want to look anyway. I am no where close to perfect and have plenty of my own issues to work out without worrying about him. Thinking about him was just a way to avoid my own stuff.
Growing up is such a hard thing. I thought that if I became a witch I would have instant wisdom but like anything else you have to work to achieve it. I'm just glad I figured out what I am before it was too late. Now I need to find my own way in the world and be true to myself. Its scary to think I might do it alone but I know now that I can.....
My sister and her daughter Emily will be here for Christmas. That shoudl be fun. I haven' seen them in over a year. Amber is pregnant and not quite past the three month mark so I am a little nervous for her but I think she is meant to have son for some reason. I hope she is happy with her new man. I am going to cast circle while she is here and see if we can tell what the baby's sex is. Better get in the shower. Time to head out to the warehouse for the final push this week. Stay tuned...........I'm coming into my own now.