Zombie

Well, its Monday morning and its cold outside still. I've been up since 6am and wishing I didn't have to go to work. I need a day to be completely alone and haven't had one in some time. I guess I will have to complain a little to get one. My son Dan is going to his Dad's for two weeks after the fifteenth so I will probably be able to make it happen then.
So, I had a dream last night that was quite involved. It had to do with some sort of invasion by zombies or people who had some sort of disease. I was trying to sneak back to the place I was staying with another person(not sure who) so that we could gather up supplies to flee the town we were in. I think it was a trailer and I couldn't find all the stuff I wanted because it was a big mess. Then out of nowhere, the biggest Rottweiler I have ever seen comes up the steps, first I am afraid and then I realize he can help protect me so I make friends with him and put him on a leash. Then a black man comes thru the front door and I know in my mind he wants to steal my mom's jewlery box. I tell him he can't have it and put the Rottweiler between us. He decides to go somewhere else and then I continue to try to get enough blankets. That seems really important and I know I cant' carry very many that easily. The person who is with me is small and can't carry much either. Then the dream switches to being at this apt in a high rise. I want to take a shower, but the bathroom is on the balconey outside. It seems really cool at first but then I realize that I will one have to crawl out around the outer railing to get in and that everyone will see me once I start showering. I feel very conflicted about this because I really want to shower but am afraid of both of these problems.
I think this dream symbolizes sorting thru my internal issues and trying to decide what to keep and what to let go of. I also think it shows that I am afraid to tackle some of my problems head on and want to let my fears stop me from getting what I want. The Rottweiler is some sort of protective symbol obviously but not sure if it is something inside myself, a god figure or someone else in my life, but in the dream I am really glad he shows up. It makes me feel more secure even though I know he is only a dog.
Anyway, got some shopping done last night and spent some time with Kellie. She is fun and I was happy to see her for a little while. I got Dan a few clothes and bought gifts for the little girls in my life. I have a few to buy for so that was fun. Everybody got cute sweatshirts this year. I now have to wrap everything up this week which is my least favorite part. I suck at it cause I have no patience, but maybe I will force myself to work harder at it this year. Well, better go to work........