I'm Backkk

Okay- New outlook on my writing. In order to change yourself you have to change yourself. So, in light of that earthshattering observation, I am going to try a new way of writing. I will only write about the positive stuff in my life first and then if the negative stuff seems worth it, I will write about that. Here it goes:
Yesterday was my birthday. I turned 38. I have a whole year ahead to do with what I will. I am determined to make it the best year of my life. I spent the day with my family. My son trekked up to the mall in freezing cold weather to buy me a birthday gift and then rode the bus home to give it to me. He bought me a very cute little ceramic fairy girl to add to the one I have in the bathroom. He is such a good kid. I am very lucky. My husband made me a birthday breakfast and spent some time doing some things around the house that he knew I would like. We hung out together quite a bit and all in all it was a nice day. A couple of my friends called me as well as my Mom and Daughter. My daughter called to tell me that they have changed the date for the wedding. They moved it up to Sept 29th. They did so because they are taking a honeymoon cruise in Oct up and down the east coast. I am so pround of her. She is doing so well and so is my son. They really inspire me to try harder to make a happy life for myself. I worry some about Chelsea as she is alot like me and tends to take on too much responsibility. I think she is healthier than I though so will most likely be fine.
So, here are some things I want to do this year:
Top of the list-cultivate my relationships with otheres so that next year I will know at least 2 new people that I can call friends
1. Make my garden bigger and take stuff to the farmers market to sell.
2. travel to at least one place I have not been in the US
3. Get a job that I can work at for at least three years
4. Work on getting out of debt
5. Lose 20 more lbs
6. Expand my spiritual practice and really learn to use it to my advantage
7. Write in my blog every morning before I leave the house.
8. Do one thing that scares me, like climb something high or go somewhere alone
9. Read more books and watch less tv
10. Get and remain sober

This is a short list but I am going to set small goals to make this happen for myself. I am tired of living the way I do and want a better life. I finally understand that a better life is there for the taking, but no one will just walk up and say "Here, you look like you need a better life." You have to take it for yourself and its okay to want it and there is nothing to fear in trying to get it. Who cares what other people think about it. Its not wrong to want good things and by good things I mean happiness and joy right where you are. So, I will work on that and try to remain positive every day. I know it sounds a little merry sunshine but my own negative attitude just doesnt work anymore and its time to make something else work now.

Good day all and see you in the morning!