Interviews

Well, Its January 3rd and things are really back to normal now except I am still not working. This is becoming very frustrating to me. I did have an interview yesterday that went pretty well. I talked to this guy at an upholstery shop a couple months ago. He was pretty interested then, but I wasn't sure about it. Then yesterday I saw he was still looking so I sent my resume. I needed to take Dan's guitar over to a repair shop so on my way back, I stopped in at this place and talked to the guy for about 1 1/2 hours. He seems like a real hardass and the retail manager was kind of hard to read but she basically told me he is a real hard ass and can be difficult to work for. She also eluded to the fact that the other women in the office were kind of bitchy so I am not sure I want to take the job even if they offer. I kind of feel like I have to at this point but don't want to get myself in a situation where I hate what I am doing just to make money. It was a good thing to do though in the respect that it was really out of my comfort zone to just stop in. It made me think about the things I was saying in the interview process a little more too. I still feel like I am trying to hide the fact that I got fired, but if he wasn't bringing it up I wasn't going to either. I think that was the right thing to do. So, now I will get back on line and take a look around at what else is out there. I see Travelers is still looking for reps but they have not called me back yet. I sent the HR manager an email yesterday but never heard back from her which I think is totally rude but what can you do except move on. So the hunt continues.
On another subject, I managed to get through the whole day without arguing with Kipp at all. That is a miracle for me but I am starting to realize that I say alot of unecessary things that set him off. I don't know how for 12 yrs I missed that fact that he absolutely hates being analyzed but he does, so I am trying to stop doing it. I don't want to sound like he is crazy for it because what it boils down to is me criticizing him and no one likes that, me especially. He also hates it when I analyze others, so I am going to try to keep that stuff in my head from now on which is nearly impossible but I test I must pass to grow and change. I love him and want us to be happy for a change and most of this work needs to come from me. He told me to make myself happy so I am going to. I suppose that might involve things that he doesn't like too but its all part of it.
Last night I had a very long involved dream that I can't remeber all of but one thing that stands out is this:
I am in a crowd of people on what I think is my high school football field, this woman who is an old friends Mom is approaching me. This woman had long white hair and kind of your stereotypical "witchy" appearance when we were kids and this is how she looks in the dream..she was always a really nice lady. In the dream, she walks up to me and sizes me up then says, you are pregnant again or something like that. All of a sudden I realize that what she is saying is true. I feel scared because I am thinking of the miscarriage but also excited because I know she is right. Then the dream moves on to something else. When I wake up this morning I am a little dissappointed because I am actually having my period right now. So , when I looked up the meaning on a dream site it says that it means I am going thru some changes that will allow me to grow and maybe some new ideas are forming within. SO, I will move on today with a good outlook and keep trying to move forward.
Kipp will be gone for the next three days so I will have some time to myself finally, finally finally. I love having him around, but it seems like I have not been alone in the house for months. This will give me time to cast and meditate like I've been wanting to without fear of interuption. I think I will go to Huckleberries today and get some sage and a couple other items to work with tonight. Time to start focusing heavily on prosperity and success for myself. I knoow that the power to facilitate change in my life is inside me and its time to unleash the beast so to speak. I am tired of feeling like everybody else has the control over my life. I have it I have just been afraid to find it. Game on people Game on......