Things I think about on the john

I think about shoes on the john. I like to look at them in magazines while I'm sitting there. I think about where I can come up with some cash to buy them. I think about all the outfits they might go with and where I will wear them. I think about how much they'll hurt my feet, the blisters that will rise. I think about how I will be secretly happy inside when someone says they like them. I think about what I'm going to pack in my lunch and how I need to send the mortgage payment in. I think about the 10.00 late fee I'm going to have to pay for doing it over the phone. I'll think about how I'm not going to let that happen again. I'll think about how it will. I think about the girls I work with and wonder if someone will have a cuter outfit than me. I think about my friend Jennie who sports this gorgeous red hair. I think about my cats and why they insist on drinking out of the bathtub faucet when there is a bowl on the floor next to the tub. I think about whether my 18 yr. old son made it home last night and whether I should go check on him or not. Does this make me totally nuerotic? Yes for sure. This is how fast my thoughts run most of the time. Its very hard for me to shut down the voices in my head, but I'm learning which ones to tune out. That is what being a witch is about. Sorting through the shouting to the quiet one in the center who makes perfect sense . That voice is God whatever form he/she takes. This is what I think about on the john.