Full Circle

I have recently come to the conclusion that unbeknownst to me my mother has moved into my house. I don't know how this happened or when, but I keep hearing her voice come out of my mouth as in I am starting to say all the dumb things she said when Iwas a kid. How does this happen? As a teenager, you swear you will never be like her and then one day Wham! Something flies out of your mouth and you're like " who the hell was that?" Don't get me wrong, I love my Mom but she is the kind of person who bases her life on fear and what if's. I call it future trippin and now that I am pregnant again I find myself indulging in it alot. " What if Kipp keeps drinking beer until he's an alcoholic? What if we don't have enough money. What if our business fails. I am getting hardily tired of hearing that voice of doom all the time. So, I have tried to start meditating again and focus on my spirituality more. After all, that's what Wicca is all about and I feel quite strongly that is the path for me. I know I can change this if I focus some attention on it so that's my goal this week. Fifteen minutes of meditation a day with candles and incense to guide me. Let go of the negative, drink in the postive and TRUST TRUST TRUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!